Surprise Baby Seeley is due April 27th and we couldn’t be happier! We were super shocked to find out about our little Surprise, but we are so looking forward to all that this little one will bring to our lives. I wasn’t planning on being a preggo/mom blogger just yet, but I guess that is changing too! As a first time mom who has been around kids all her life, this is an especially interesting experience. Many of the things I’m going through, I’ve witnessed or heard about from friends, family, and co-wokers.
Other things are brand new – at least to me. As a lover of all things random and a believer in being honest and fully embracing life, I am choosing to share with you some of my thoughts on finding out we are expecting. Some of these may sound negative (and some are!), but I think it’s important for people to know that everyone has these thoughts and that it’s ok to freak out a little!
There’s a muffin top where my stomach used to be. I’ll be honest. I’ve never had a great body image, but I guess I always thought I’d be ready to grow when I became pregnant. Nope, lots of tears and adjustments and clothes-throwing. Now that the muffin top is looking more preggo-belly like, it’s getting a little easier to accept.
I want to eat everything I see. They lied when they said you get a free food pass when you’re growing a baby. The correct food is still important – especially when you’re starving! And saying no to lots of cake is even harder when your hormones are all whacky!
Is it 8pm yet? I asked my sweet hubby this almost every day of my first trimester – even after at least one nap. I guess I decided that 8 was the acceptable earliest to pass out for the night. … even though I didn’t always make it til then …
I’m never going to sleep EVER again! I had a legit freakout in the middle of the night over this one. I was achy and exhausted but I couldn’t get to sleep. I just started bawling and saying things like “I’m not going to sleep for 9 months! And then they won’t sleep for ever! And then they’ll be older and I’ll worry and I won’t ever sleep again!” Can we say HORMONES?! Ha!
But this wasn’t part of the plan! I’m a planner. I like to know what’s happening and when. I like to be informed way in advance if changes are made to my plan. Cue baby. And life lesson about trusting God’s timing.
We have to get a house! I think that my husband has this thought more than I do, but I definitely have to keep reminding myself that where we are is just fine – even if it wasn’t where we planned on bringing home a baby.
Where are we going to put the baby? This thought mostly comes from the fact that the “office” has been more of a “let’s pile everything we don’t have a place for in the middle of the floor” room. And now that room needs to accomodate a small child and allllllllll the stuff that comes with a tiny human.
I need to go shopping! But seriously.
I can just keep wearing regular clothes… And five seconds later I was begging for maternity pants! I am so grateful to everyone who has given me clothes – I love that sharing maternity clothes is a thing.
How am I going to keep working? Now this is a big one. I am a nanny 4 kids, so adding 1 of my own means I am caring for 5 kids (more so in the summer because of school times, but still!). I just keep praying that God would work out this lovely detail for His glory.
I’m not ready! Everyone says, “But no one really is.” I guess I thought I would feel more ready, be at a different place in my life, something! I guess it comes back to that whole plan thing. God has been preparing me, and I need to just rely on Him. Through Him I CAN do all things.
I didn’t have me figured out yet! How to be a me and be a mom, that is the question. I’ve seen so many people completely lose themselves when they have kids. I have always thought that being a good parent meant balancing loving your kids and loving your self. And I don’t really have the second one figured out yet.
What about my marriage? Just like the thought above, I feel like I haven’t really figured out how to be a good wife yet! I mean I know it’s always a work in progress, but the perfectionist in me wanted to have that down prior to adding a cute little person to our family.
How am I going to balance it all? Breathing. Taking a moment at a time. Setting priorities. Sticking to my schedule, but not beating myself up when I need to rest. … Working on all those things! I think this is something that comes up at all the big crossroads moments of our lives! We have to consciously decide to balance instead of juggle – which requires letting go.
Netflix, I love you. That’s pretty self-explanatory, yea? Also, Netflix, you need Boy Meets World and the next season of Fixer Upper.
But I just started blogging. How am I going to keep up? Any tips, bloggers? I am a newbie as it is and I was starting to get really overwhelmed. I have a better schedule now, but I’d love any advice you have to give!
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Patti Starr says
Love you Anna Banana! Schedules and lists are fine but being able to go with the flow will save your sanity! Be ready for the detours they can be the most fun adventures!
Anna says
Yep! 🙂 They always have been in the past, so I have no doubts about this very big adventure.
Alicia says
You got this girl! I am always here for ya with answers to questions or if I don’t have one, making one up to look good. :)) And don’t worry about having it all together cause I definitely don’t and I got two!
Anna says
Well thanks, super mom! 😀